JoleneQ.

rubyebonyivory @ 2008-07-11T23:15:00

2008-07-11T15:17:46Z

BS. Since I don't have much to blog in LJ anymore.

rubyebonyivory @ 2007-10-27T23:55:00

2007-10-27T16:08:53Z

sorry my non-LJ friends. but this. is gonna be my diary! and im sure it doesn't hurt to get an LJ!!
XOXOXO, JOLENE!

rubyebonyivory @ 2007-09-09T23:43:00

2007-09-09T15:43:40Z

damn scared please. |:

rubyebonyivory @ 2007-08-29T00:02:00

2007-08-28T16:07:45Z

sometimes i feel so small. sometimes i feel like i should disappear from this world for a moment. run away. to make you miss me. sometimes i feel underappreciated. sometimes i feel im being taken for granted. sometimes i feel that i put you way on top, that every slightest mistake you make, makes my world come tumbling down. sometimes i wish i never existed at all. if i didn't, would you miss me? would you feel like a significant part of your life is gone? i highly doubt so. if ever i run away, don't look back.

do it carefully aye

2007-07-31T19:47:38Z

so you think you really know me? then go ahead.
you've been warned.

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back to basic

2007-07-30T14:29:54Z

hahahahha. i am so bloody lame. i think im switching back to blogger. cause livejournal requires loads of self discipline which i have none. LOL. okthanksbye. you can hang around if you wanna. we could meet up sometime for a caramel frappe(: ok random.

do my test!(:

2007-07-29T10:29:44Z

no songs for today cause i already blogged one in my blogger(:
here's my quiz to keep you occupied!
xoxo love you<3

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my sexy love<3

2007-07-28T15:50:24Z

baby what we do,
it makes the sun come up.
and keep on loving till it goes back down.
and i don't know what i'd do if i would lose your touch.
thats why i'm always keeping you around.
my sexy love.

haji lane is love(:

emo is so overrated.
vintage is in y'all.
rock off, rave on.
supposedly 'in' with the 'out' crowd, no?

bloody hell.
im trying to rush all my assignments NOW.
absolutely hate this feeling.
like running a marathon,
you are already so effing exhausted you just wanna rest but you know you shouldn't?
so you continue but with much hesitation and personal motivation.
so right now im still halfway on my marathon.
if i could just get it over.
by wednesday i'll be so much more relaxed.
can't wait for the hols to come.
damn.

im sick and tired of reasoning out with you.
well if you don't like the way i do things then so be it.
i'm not going to care anymore.
i have enough stuff to clog my mind for a decade or so.
i don't need you to make it all worser.
okaythanksbye.

i didn't know what was in store.

2007-07-27T15:55:57Z

i know we're both young,
but we know how we feel.
we know what is false,
but we know what is real.
i remember the night you said lets go for a ride.
would we be more than friends?
yet little did i know before,
we would be something more.

darn.
im so uber tired,
mad
and sick.

damn.
today was HMS Day.
yes i know wtf.
i guess the only positive outcome of it all was the bonding of our class(:
so happy!
so glad!
hehheh.
but some people don't know how to play one.
play match can banghere bangthere, touch here touch there like wth.
i was so uber pissed i wanted to shout at them,
"GIRLS WITH ASSES LIKE MINE, DO NOT TALK TO GUYS WITH FACES LIKE YOURS"
like c'mon luh.
they damn fucking ugly.
alrighto.
shan't make myself feel any sadder than i already am.
my nose is fucking running and my throat hurts like fuck.
damnit.
i dont think im going down for poolslot tmr.
risk my canoepeeps health?
uh uh.
ain't that bad!
i love them!
just like i love r.
i miss him like damn!
romeolohchanwei!
MINE!
hahahaha!
(:

the rain it tumbled down through the cracks in the sky.

2007-07-26T15:39:06Z

dear did you know that people love each other,
just like we do.
just like they do.
dear did you know you're all i ask for,
so hold on to me.
hold on with me here.

zomg,
my legs ache like fuck.
went to gym today!
with maybelle only though.
cara last minute didnt feel well so she didnt gym.
superr funny man.
last minute got poolslot.
but then the weather was frigging cold did you think anyone would go down?
LOL.
andand i finished watching transformers for the second time today with LOVE!
i loveeeee optimus prime!
hahahhahaha!
anyway,
somehow i just can't find motivation to start on my studies.
like wtf.
im so freaking tired.
exhausted.
i think imma turn in now.
toodles.

hold on before its too late.

2007-07-25T14:42:06Z

so live like you mean it.
love till you feel it.
its all that we need in our life
so stand on the edge with me.
hold back your fear and see.
nothing is real till its gone.

damn.
i can't tell you how much.
just how utterly disappointed i am in myself.
from this moment on,
i promise that you will see a different me.
no more funny funny playplay Jolene.
work is work.
play is play.
im gonna set a clear boundary between this.

i totally screwed up physical fitness test today.
like wtf.
seriously.
sprinting was fuck.
17plus luh my timing.
pullups was fuck too.
9?!
2.4km run was fuck.
13:30.
bench press was as usual.
24.
fuck.
that over the head pushing weight thingy,
26.
fuck.
bicep curl?
28.
fuck.
i can't express just how utterly disappointed am i in myself.
thats it.
no more riding the bicycle thingy for 45 minutes just to watch "The Tyra Banks Show"
im gonna gym tmr.
lift weights.
to hell with slim slender and sexy arms.
im gonna do it y'all.
for once imma make sure i don't screw up my life.
alright.
im through with ranting.
toodles.
off to finish the assignments.
by the way,
i love you romeo(:
i really do.

i want you to want me

2007-07-24T15:47:03Z

i want you to want me
i need you to need me
i'd love you to love me

damn it.
livejournal just erased everything i wrote.
sigh.
now im writing it all over again.
since i really wanna sleep already,
i shall make things SHORT AND SWEET.
i miss my romeo and the times we spent crapping on msn.
boooooo.
owells.
toodles then.
PS im done with waiting for fucked imeem to upload my song. i promise i'll try to get it up asap!MUAHMUAH!
XOXO love

so take in all you can

2007-07-23T15:34:08Z

Ooooo tonight,
the stars are oh so bright!

falalalala!
(:
today is moderately happy day!
im just really really tired!
WOKE UP AT 5AM TODAY LUH.
can die.
felt as though i was going back to tkg.
then rushed home.
rushed to school.
i think i was ridiculously dressed today!!
thanks to laziness cause i didnt want to carry shoebag.
pahh.
in the end no need to bring laptop.
so i was lugging a redundant thingy around and looking oh so unglam.
so after lessons went to queensway with melisa, macy, jessica and LOVE to get the class tees stuff done.
zeeomg.
i wanna shop at queensway after i get my pay!
see im counting my chickens before they hatched.
sigh.
i wanna do my shopping at hollandV, queensway, fareast, TOPSHOP!, and possibly junkfood tees!
OH AND DRAINPIPES FROM PENINSULA!
(:
oooh anticipation!
alrighty!
back to my assignments chionging and randomness!
toodles!
i wanna eat sour apple strips from mini toons!
:S

rubyebonyivory @ 2007-07-22T14:47:00

2007-07-22T07:41:47Z

hellohello.
the first picture was taken eons ago luh.
back when i still had my emo hair!
(:
owells.
today is so boring.
watched a few videos,
accepted a few comments.
read my cleo.
missed my boy.
oh God.

i just received a call from fiona.
the woman from yestuition.
zomg.
hopefully i dont screw up!
im gonna be teaching a P4 kid english math and science!
and he/she stays at fajar.
where the bloody hell is that?
and i have to be punctual.
!!
i dont wanna screw up!
from now on jolene wont be free from 3:00pm to 4:30pm on thursdays and fridays!
falalalala!
toodles for now

rubyebonyivory @ 2007-07-22T00:39:00

2007-07-21T16:57:37Z

sheena loo: "aye show her the baby whatever leh!"
fanghui: "dont want! so childish! i got muscles already cannot do such things!"

ROFL!
my canoegirls are so funny!
after training at kap with them are much lovesss.
we were talking about the different names to call ourselves!
then we had
teamRANGERS / teamMUSCLES / teamDEVILS / team....
countless possiblities!
(:

i can't believe such guys exist.
i mean,
actually threatening me?!
a guy threatening a girl.
zeeomg.
whatever happened to mannerism.
and chivalry.
sigh.
whatever happened to the days of yore.
ok if anything were to happen to me these coming days.
i just wanna say i love you.
ghislene,
shermin,
cara,
shunli,
eljae,
linette,
fanghui,
shuhui,
and not forgetting you.
ROMEOLOHCHANWEI!
<3

as promised, no song today but quote from FANGHUI
(:

i can't deny your eyes

2007-07-20T08:40:48Z

and i,
can't deny your eyes.
you know i tried to read between the lines.
i saw a warning sign.
and then you feel me up gainst the wall.
who said that its better to have loved and lost,
i wished that i have never loved at all.

boo.
i am so tired now.
especially my eyes.
they just feel like closing every second.
anyways, i think im effing fat.
today i went to queensway with jess and mel to settle our classtees.
zomg.
coolio shiatzz we're getting nike.
(:
and we went to eat.
currychickenwithrice,
coconutjuice,
soursop,
taiwansausages
PLUS
thismorning's
multigrainMUSHROOMandCHEESEsandwich!!
hahahahaha.
am fat!
am so fat!!!
bleh.
and right now.
yours truly is at the the snackbar eating mint icecream!
oooh
my name is joleneTRANSFATS quek.
):
sigh.
alrighto.
im going to gym already.
toodles people.

pain.

2007-07-19T15:26:33Z

pain,
without love.
pain,
i can't get enough.
pain,
i like it rough.
'cause i'd rather feel pain than nothing at all.

i guess i shall just stop blogging about what happened and how i feel.
from now on,
its all random.
or else i'll locked the entry.
so here's food for thought.

we talk like we know whats going on but we dont. we dont know anything. we're young and we're gonna screw up alot. we're gonna keep changing our minds and maybe our hearts. and through all that, the only real thing we can offer each other is forgiveness.

when it feels like rain

2007-07-18T15:34:03Z

with the lines all drawn
and the rain begins to creep
its way from bored and apathy*.
we loved that game but we never play,
cause we wil lose and we wanna stay.
the way we are,
the way we've been for far too long.
and we feel like rain,
when all the words sound the same,
as the curtain closes on another day.

today is lameass day.
lalala.
after lectures hung out with jessica.
HAHAHA.
went to the library to watch lame 'supposed-to-be-WTF-so-bloody-scary-but-its-actually-whole-lotta-crap' movie today.
so japanese horror called marebito or something.
but the plot is good.
like the hollowearththeory and stuff.
i actually researched on it.
JUST NOW,
seriously i'd rather a scientist than a CHILDCARE TEACHER GODDD.
sigh.
after that we still had time and decided to watch "like a boy".
featuring hugh grant.
*swoons*
isn't that the typical reaction?
LOL
but i don't really care actually.
just doing for the sake of doing.
then jess had to leave for cca so i met ghis and becky.
went to snackbar to eat and stone and bitch.
i went to see my dearcanoepeeps.
(:
did the last 40 pushups with 'em.
although i looked absolutely RETARDED doing so.
haha
cardigan and all.
but who cares?
not me.
watched them train.
camwhored.
becky left.
chatted with bestie.
came to realisation that we will always be "angry people watching the world go by"
SIGH.
left after saying bye to peeps.
waited to say bye to shuhui but couldnt find her.
ROARRR,
so left.

so many things happened.
i just dont know what to do anymore.
i wanna let go.
yet im scared to.
cause i REALLY dont wanna hurt you.
if i really hurt you.
i will lend you my shoulder to cry on.
baby im so sorry.

do you expect me to wait here?

2007-07-17T15:23:48Z

i only stayed to break your heart,
you can tell it by the way i run away,
runaway girl.
turn and time and time will tell.
time will tell or tear us apart.
you're miles and miles and miles away.
silence reveals where we really are.

boo.
life's been a bitch.
a real damn farked up bitch.
nowadays i feel very satisfied to be able to enjoy a moment of silence in front of my laptop.
thinking absolutely nothing,
doing absolutely nothing.
i know its wasting time but it feels good.
maybe i really should quit canoepolo.
although it IS the love of my life.
to concentrate on the more important things in life.
like studies.
so said mummy.
but im too tired to argue with her about my rights.
oh yes before i go.
thanks romeo for the sunflower.
(:
okok.
im going back to my stoning.

food for thought.

2007-07-16T08:37:31Z

in the morning.
you know you won't remember a thing.
in the morning,
you know you're gonna be alright.

Like The Real World, meets Boy Meets Girl..meets Days of Our Lives

Boy calls girl: "Hi, I really like you. Will you be my girlfriend?"
Girl says to boy: "Call you back in 2 minutes. I have to ask my mom."

Only fools rush in. Don't be a fool. Mom is always right (99% of the time).

got that from holly's blog.
zomg ain't it so true?
ok i shall eee-nee-mee-nee-mii-nee-mo and put this song as song of the day.

DO IT Y'ALL(:

2007-07-15T03:25:38Z

this is to meishan(:
she thinks im too busy to do this so i prove her wrong!
im never too busy for my girlfriends!!
:D
miss blackskinnies and RANGERS!

1)put ur music player on shuffle
2)press forward for each question
3)use the song title as the answer for ur qsn, even if it doesnt make sense
4)tag 5 other people
5)bold the questions and the the answers and give ur own comments

how are you feeling today?
false pretense - the red jumpsuit apparatus
im in disguise woahhhhhh.

how do your friends see you?
stay with me - finch
im important to them.
am i?

will you get married?
all that i've got - the used
zeeomg!!
"im far from lonely and thats all that i've got"
(:

what is your best friend's theme song?
invincible - OK Go!
hahahahaha my best friend is invincible!!
:D

what's the story of your life?
dirty dancing - the black eyed peas
wooots... dancing is the sex mannnnn.

what was primary school like?
tainted love - the pussycat dolls
rofl. abit too young luh LOL

how do you get ahead in life?
dear jamie...sincerely me - hellogoodbye
haha i write(:

what is the best thing about your friends?
a beautiful life(la bella vita) - lindsay lohan
we all share beautiful lives. thanks to each other((:

what is in store this weekend?
aliens exist(live) - blink 182
HAHAHA! we're being invaded!

what song best describes you?
waiting game - yellowcard
jolene the procrastinater.

describe our grandparents.
the symphony of blase - anberlin
"this is our last goodbye". yup bye.

how is your life going?
gravity's rainbow - klaxons
"COME WITH ME COME WITH ME WE'LL TRAVEL TO INFINITY I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU MY FUTURE LOVEEE"
haha awaiting?

how does the world see you?
catch your wave - the click five
they all wanna catch MY wave (;

will you have a happy life?
darlin' - between the trees
zeeomg emo song.

what does your friend really think of you?
when you're gone - avril lavigne
they'll miss me when im gone(:

do people secretly lust after you?
dont cha - the pussycat dolls
WOOOHOOO they wished their girlfriends were hot like meeee((:

how can i make myself happy?
inevitable - anberlin
being happy is inevitable(:

what should i do with my life?
dismantle repair - anberlin
break down but pick myself up after every fall(:

will you ever have children?
my happy ending - avril lavigne
we'll live happily ever after!

I TAG:
SHERMINNN
ROMEO
GHISLENE
CARA
ELJAE

HAPPY DOING(:

one last try(:

2007-07-13T11:59:06Z

Our seperation has it's faults
but I don't wanna leave it all
so write the letters in teary ink
I just need some time to think
and I just need some time to breathe

hello.
i think today is.
unpalatable.
got back play assignment results.
i got a passable D+.
pretty good for a 3 liner.
haha.
had field practicum tutorial.
just discovered i have another assignment to pass up on 1st Aug.
woots im the best.
anyway, i realised today that i really should get my act together.
no more honeymoon period
mug mug mug.
work hard play hard train hard love hard.
baby im sorry i've been an emo bitch lately.
i just felt as though i've been to the moon and back.
but im fine now.
after thinking through everything,
whats a relationship without hesitations and obstacles?
so im giving us one last shot
(:
happy first month btw <3

and the world spins madly on.

2007-07-12T13:35:30Z

woke up and wished that i was dead
with an aching in my head
i lay motionless in bed
i thought of you and where you'd gone
and let the world spin madly on

hello.
i was on hiatus for two days.
whee.
these days been a blur of sweat and tears.
so uber tired.
physically and mentally.
pahh.
so hungry.

so today was attachment day.
zeeomg some kids are seriously bleh.
can just vomit blood my entire life man.
anyways went back to school to gym with linette and eljae and shunli
(:
we looked like 4dumbasses suntanning with our clothes on and practically with no sun.
the stupid sun was like playing peekaboo with us.
so irritating.
jolene is still feeling black.
alright toodles for now.
i hear dinner calling me.

rubyebonyivory @ 2007-07-09T18:33:00

2007-07-09T10:57:54Z

be careful what you wish for.
cause you just might get it.

sigh.
emo girl in a black mood.
"the opposite of love is not hate, its indifference.
'cause you care enough for the person to actually hate them."
and that there's a thin line between love and hate.
sooo.
argh.
i dont know.

save me from myself.

2007-07-09T05:53:58Z

hands, like secrets, are the hardest to keep from you.
lines and phrases, like knives, your words can cut me through.
dismantle me down.
repair.
you dismantle me.
you dismantle me.
save me from myself.

hello.
i love donuts!(:
i know you love them!you you YES you!
romeolohchanwei!
sighhh.
so sick of assignments!
@#%^&*&^%$#